Dead or just Down

Never thought id say this but the darkness

Is nice, i feel like its consuming me 

But wait aint it really nice? 

Well it takes me away from this world, 

This globe that people are tryna save.

This place I’ll forever hate, 

This place ill never forget,

I’ll never stop until my death. 

Yes it hurts, just a little bit thou, 

I feel like bleeding out just cools my soul.

Burn marks to me  just look like mere black holes. 

Pain is nothing to me right now,

But hurt yes i am and i wont feel it now. 

When you shoot a lion never forget to double check, 

You might just turn your back and he’d attack your neck. 

So now let me tell you where you went wrong, 

You should’ve checked if i was dead or just down. 

Known enemy

Im hurt, yes i am 

And so are you, yes i know. 

Never stopped believing, 

But now i don’t. 

Hate to break it to you, 

But if you text i wont. 

Here’s a fullstop and a question mark 

For all your jokes, 

And now an exclamation 

Oh wait no you dont.

So now you can run out to the kitchen 

And grab a knife for yourself, 

Cause i know when you read this you 

Cant live with yourself. 

Showing me the finger is like giving the

Spider a web, I’ll bend it and then use it to my advantage. 

Here’s some week poison, 

Cus i wont let you die 

No not yet, I’ll kill you later but 

For now this teaser is right. 

I survive through the day and

Fight to the night. 

So you aint tellin me that 

I dont give us that light 

Oh boy you always busy 

Why dont you look at me. 

Lady im busy grinding 

And being the next shady 

Cause i know at the end of this 

Y’all gon hate me. 

Stop pretending that you don’t

Know whats goin on. 

Girl ive been there done that 

And then taken the fall. 

To break a bone is easier that i had thought

But to break a heart will leave you with a permenant scar. 

And these scars do hurt although the 

Wound is healed but the mark stays for ever 

Untill the last nail, in your coffin 

So go out and find your self one 

What do you need 

An open or a shut as your soul. 

I’d suggested you get a close casket  

Cus no one needs to see your ungly face 

For the last time, 

But know that ill cry,

Cus I’ve lost a known enemy 

And a great ally.  

Writers note:  I write  just what comes to my                             mind and not everything i write                             is what i feel, it is quite possible                           that I’m not even in a bad mood                           when i write this. Also please                               do leave a feedback because i                              know i write really bad so need                            some tips and/or suggestions. 

                                Toodles

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I think I live in my head, sometimes I think that I’m dead.
I hide behind my mask
No, I been losing my mind and I’m a little behind
Step inside my shoes
Cause I’ve never been happy with myself

And I don’t need no one feeling bad for me
Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me

Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me

And where the fuck is God?  maybe I ain’t believing enough
But today we gonna see if he’s real
And if he is, I guess I’m probably going to hell

Look, I ain’t wanna die like this
I ain’t picture my life like this
They don’t know what it’s like, like this
Pretending I’m happy so I can smile like this

And laugh like you
Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you
Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like you

Or would you feel lost without me?